Passing the Time

Here I sit at work, looking at my desk, on which I have just placed 2 photo frames filled with pictures of my life:
-my crazy awesome friend Nick Rice, making a face that describes him completely
-my cat, Twist...I miss spending time with her...
-My brother and me. I love him.
-Me holding a beautiful girl in Jamaica...how my heart longs to go on another mission trip and play with kids and see them smile like that!
-Church friends...all lined up for a cheesey picture. Love it.
-Me and Dusty. After nearly a month, it's still strange to me that I'm dating him! I'm lucky that God has given me such a wonderful gift. It's stretching, but I'm learning and growing in it.

I don't want to be all about me. Last night, after baptsim, I was called into the volunteer office at church and told that my mother had just prayed to receive Christ...and instead of being happy, I was sad. I was confused. I was embarrassed. I was jealous. I was disappointed in myself. I was scared. If she had prayed tonight, what did we do last year? What did I lead her through? Did I not do a good enough job? Did I mess up?

It was all coming back to me.
I don't want it to be that way.

I got to pray last night and do some work with Jesus, which was great. Life is about HIM, not about me.

It's weird, the things that are happening in my life. They're totally from Jesus, but I don't understand why He's giving them to me. What have I done? I don't deserve them:
-Dusty. A real, healthy, God-serving relationship. It's scary, but so rewarding.
-Job. I have been hired on staff at the UK Singletary Center for the Arts as the Main Office Manager. It's wild. I began work here my freshman year as a ticket taker, and now I have my own desk and business cards? I have a real job...
-Roommates. Natalie and I just went and looked at a townhome yesterday, and it was amazing. Great price, great location, great space. Just great. If the Lord green-lights me living with Nat and Diva, it'll be a GO, and it will be incredible. I'm super excited!

It's weird. I wonder what this next year is going to look like...

I can't wait.