I want...

to be selfless.

That's pretty much my goal for the year.
Over the last 3 months, Jesus has been revealing places in me that are so selfish...it's disgusting. I've seen where if things don't go the way I want them to, I get frustrated and I am not at all quick to give grace. I've seen where I am frugal with my money, but don't think about what others sacrifice when they offer to buy me food, etc. I've chosen comparison and desired attention.
I want to be rid of all of that...I want to be more like Jesus.

This year I get the gift of being a part of a leadership group at church...at the beginning, our pastor warned that it would be a hard and very stretching year for anyone who chose to participate. I heard Jesus telling me this was the spot for me right now, so I said yes. I don't think I realized how it could even be as hard as Pete was making it out to be...

Then last night we had our first 'Horizon' meeting...and he started to show me the beginnings of what this year is going to look like. We found out what group of people we are going to be with this year, getting to know each other, growing together and working together on projects. Within the first minute of sitting with my group, I started to cry. Preferences were uncovered that I had no idea were there. It was gross, but great that Jesus would reveal that to me up front so I could get rid of it & make way for everything to come.

I can't wait to see how He changes me this year. It is going to be uber challenging, but it will totally be worth it.