One more

And another one.

Just found out that yet another couple got engaged this weekend.

Jesus did some great work in my heart the other week, showing me where I had shifted my hope from him & placed expectations on D that he never knew about & that were never meant to be placed on him. We got to have a great conversation & it has felt much more free since then...

I just realized though, that my initial reaction is still comparison & disappointment when I hear of other engagements. I justify them as being 'OK' if the couple has been together longer than me & D or if the couple is considerably older than us...otherwise, it's frustration or disappointment.

I know God has a beautiful plan and only wants to lavish me & D with it...I believe it. I know there must be some work He wants to do in each of us before presenting us with the gift of marriage...the waiting time is just hard when it's smacked in your face all the freaking time.

So, Lord, please help steady my heart in this area. I want to be trusting you so firmly that my only reaction for other couples you call into marriage before me & D is excitement & congratulations, in just the same way your heart is for them.